Dance recital

 My kids had their dance recital on the 9th of June. They did so great! I love watching them perform, and show off everything they have learned. Lukas and Blair both love their hip hop and ballet classes.

 All ready too go minus Blair's costume!

 Lukas did a beach theme dance and he chose to wear this! He was going to originally wear his wife beater with the swim suit but he said he felt weird in it cause it showed his nipples! He is a modest one!

 Blair all ready for the cooking dance.

 Blair and Paris. They are such cute little dance friends.

 "Hey Good Lookin what ya got a cookin"

 Lukas doing great in his dance!

 Splish Splash dance! Seriously, SO FUNNY! Miss Monica decided at the last minute to blow bubbles from a fan as part of the props. The girls had never practiced it this way and were a little stunned. They would perform the dance for a bit then take off chasing bubbles. We were laughing so hard. I can't wait too watch it again on my DVD when I get it.

Miss Monica and Blair! She is such a fabulous ballet teacher. So sweet with the girls. She made all their costumes complete with matching hair bows. She would text me and remind me about things. Blair has learned a lot from her. I love that she helped install a love of dancing in Miss Blair.

Slip N Slide!

 Usually every year we have to buy a new swimming pool. For some reason our pools usually end up with a hole in it at the end of every Summer. This year we pulled out our swimming pool too discover no holes! YAY! So instead we bought a Slip N Slide! My kids LOVE it. Every day they say, "Today seems nice I think it is a Slip N Slide day."

It's a girl!

After having 3 ultrasounds in the last 3 or 4 weeks we are 100 percent convinced we are having a girl! We are super excited to complete our little family with another girl baby. I won't even pretend that I didn't want another girl. Even though I would have been just as happy with a boy, I really wanted a sister for Blair. I don't have any sisters, but as I watch other sisters together I know there is such a special bond between them, a friend for life! I want Blair to have someone to share her secrets and struggles with, someone to do everything with. These two little girls will be so lucky to not only have each other, but to have Lukas! Lukas is going to be such a good big brother too them. I know he will protect them and be there for them all the time.

This little girl already has a name. We are going to name her Lettie Lee. I have always loved the name Lettie. Dan, not so much. I tried to name Blair, Lettie. He wasn't convinced. He came around though and I get to use it! Maybe we just needed to save it for this special little girl that is completing our family.

We are so excited to meet little Lettie! Our fertility treatments and pregnancy have been a little interesting. I have cried lots of tears since we started trying to complete our family in December. I wasn't going to share, but I just feel like I need too. For some reason it took a little longer for us to get pregnant this time. We were nervous this time around because we only had so many tries left, before we would just have to complete our family with two kids instead of the three we dreamed of. We prayed and prayed. It got a little exhausting finding sitters at the last minute to go up to the U, and telling our kids why we were gone so much. For some reason every time we went it was SO busy! I met so many women trying to have babies, trying to fulfill their dreams of motherhood. My heart ached for them. I heard so many different stories. Some just like mine, some a little different. However, we were all there for the same thing. Every time I left the clinic I ended up bawling the whole way home. I prayed and still pray for the ladies I met. One lady really touched my heart. She was 40 and got married kind of late. So she never had the chance to try and be a mom before. Her husband was considerably older then her. He already had 5 kids, but they really wanted one more together. She was on her 4th round of artificial IUI. I could see it in her eyes how hard this was for her. She had been pregnant once and she had a still born. I really hope that everything worked out and she got the one baby she dreamed of.

We found out we were pregnant a week before Blair turned 3! We were so excited! It worked and just in time. I haven't been too sick which is rare for me, and I thought yay finally a pregnancy that will be easier. This hasn't been the case. I started spotting at 10 weeks. My Dr. and I watched to see if it would stop. It didn't so they sent me in for an Ultrasound. I have a complete Placenta Previa, and a little tear in my uterus close to my placenta. For now I am not allowed to pick up my kids, exercise, and I need to take it easy. We are hoping that my Placenta will move as the Uterus and baby grow. Complete Previas have a less likely chance of moving then partial or low lying placentas. I have prayed and been to the temple and had a blessing. I am confident that if I do what I am supposed to we will have a healthy baby.

A week ago though I took a spill going to the garage for a roast. I landed right on my tail bone, I am pretty sure that I broke it. I passed out as I stood up and scared poor Dan and Lukas too death. My blood pressure got really low and we felt like I should go to the hospital just to check out the baby. All looked well with her. This was our 3rd confirmation that we are having a girl! However, the placenta hasn't moved at all. I still have a complete previa.

This last week has been a bit of a struggle as I can't do what I normally do. I have felt guilt as I watch Dan take over some of my duties. I have felt guilt as I struggle to not be there as much for my kids as I would like. I have felt guilt as some of our plans have had to go on the back burner because of what happened. I have felt so much guilt over so many things. As Blair gets hurt and goes to someone else cause she knows I can't pick her up my heart aches. For now my goal is to have a healthy baby and to make it to term. I am nervous about a lot of things, bed rest, preterm labor etc if my Placenta ends up not moving.  For now I am just taking it a day at a time and hoping my kids will forgive me for the things that I can't do, and will love me for the things I am doing.

 Lukas had peschool graduation last week! I honestly can't believe that he has completed 2 years of preschool. He has loved it so much! However, he can't wait to go to Kindergarten. Every day he asks me how many more sleeps till he gets to go. This boy strives on a routine. He strives on learning, and making friends. I know he is going to be great in Kindergarten.

 Lukas gave these flowers to Ms. Val.

 Blair had to be in on the action too!

 I didn't get the best pics. It was cold and windy! Plus my batteries were dying. Which makes my pics blurry. The kids did awesome despite the wind and cold.

 Lukas was the LOUDEST singer of them all. I was a proud mom!

 So excited to get his diploma! Well I think he was more excited about the grape soda in the treat bag Ms. Val gave him.

Lukas is going to miss Ms. Val! Blair gets to enjoy her next year though. She can't wait!
P.S. don't you love the Kanye glasses? He loves them and wears them all over the house now. I couldn't even get him to take them off for his pic with Ms. Val.

Back yard fun at grandmas!

 My kids love playing in Grandma and Grandpa's back yard! Sprinklers under the tramp, HUGE garden to help plant, tree swing, and big trees too climb! Who wouldn't love their back yard?

 They love playing on the tramp! They beg me for one every day. They will just have to settle for jumping on grandma and grandpas.

 Cutest kids ever~

This is the climbing tree! My kids could play in it for hours.

Princess festival

A few weeks ago I took Blair to a Princess Festival. It was a fund raiser being put on by the local community theater. Blair had a lot of fun. She loved seeing all the princesses, and stared wide eyed at them.

 Blair got a new Cinderella dress for the occasion. She was going to wear her tangled wig but at the last minute decided she wanted her hair curled instead. She has a little Tangled,Sleeping Beauty, and Cinderella on.

 She had an apple painted on her cheek. Do not ask me why she chose this.

 Eating a cookie and drinking lemonade!

 Having fun dancing! She made a little friend as you can see in the last photo. It was cute, they were attracted to each other cause they had the same dress on.

 Tangled and Blair! When Lukas saw this picture he said, "That does NOT look like Tangled! That looks like a boy!" Ummm I didn't know how to answer him.

Blair and Cinderella. They also took a picture of her with Snow White and Belle, but I can't find it on the festival website. I hope it shows up or I will be sad! Blair was so cute and so fun at the festival! I am glad she had a great time!

CRAZY GIRL!

SERIOUSLY, where does she come from? Good thing she is so cute! She got to the sun screen within probably one minute of coming inside from running through the sprinklers. We got it all off, however, she looked like she had pink eye the rest of the day! Poor girl, looked like she was going to wake up with pink eye! Luckily, Benadryl and sleep helped and she woke up just fine.